मैं एक खूबसूरत लाश बनना चाहती हूँ।
I want to be a pretty corpse.
I want to be a pretty corpse.
जब वह कहता है कि वह मुझसे प्यार करता है, तो इसका सिर्फ इतना मतलब होता है कि वह उस खास पल में मुझसे प्यार करता है। बिल्कुल अपने वादों की तरह, जिन्हें वह कभी नहीं निभाता। वह मुझे इस तरह क्यों तड़पाता है, जबकि वह इस सबका अंत एक बार में कर सकता है?
When he says he loves me, it only means he loves me at that particular instant. Like his promises, which he never keeps. Why does he torment me like this, when he could finish it off at once?
When he says he loves me, it only means he loves me at that particular instant. Like his promises, which he never keeps. Why does he torment me like this, when he could finish it off at once?
मैं बस एक ही चीज़ चाहती हूँ। मैं गंभीर रूप से बीमार पड़ना चाहती हूँ, और कम से कम एक हफ्ते के लिए उसके बारे में कुछ भी नहीं सुनना चाहती। मेरे साथ कुछ क्यों नहीं होता? मुझे यह सब क्यों भुगतना पड़ रहा है? काश मैंने कभी उसके दर्शन न किए होते!
There is only one thing I want. I would like to be seriously ill, and to hear nothing more about him for at least a week. Why doesn't something happen to me? Why do I have to go through all this? If only I had never set eyes on him!
There is only one thing I want. I would like to be seriously ill, and to hear nothing more about him for at least a week. Why doesn't something happen to me? Why do I have to go through all this? If only I had never set eyes on him!
उसने मुझसे कितनी ही बार कहा है कि वह मेरे प्यार में पागल है, लेकिन इसका क्या मतलब जब पिछले तीन महीनों से मैंने उससे एक भी प्यार भरा शब्द नहीं सुना है?
He has so often told me he is madly in love with me, but what does that mean when I haven't had a good word from him in three months?
He has so often told me he is madly in love with me, but what does that mean when I haven't had a good word from him in three months?
मैं अपना सिर खपा रही हूँ यह पता लगाने के लिए कि वह मुझसे बिना अलविदा कहे क्यों चला गया।
I am racking my brains to find out why he left without saying goodby to me.
I am racking my brains to find out why he left without saying goodby to me.
आज मैंने लॉटरी के दो टिकट खरीदे, क्योंकि मुझे ऐसा लग रहा था कि या तो आज या कभी नहीं - और दोनों ही खाली निकल गए। तो आखिरकार मैं अमीर नहीं बनने वाली। इसके बारे में कुछ भी नहीं किया जा सकता है।
Today I bought two lottery tickets, because I had a feeling that it would be now or never - they were both blanks. So I am not going to be rich after all. Nothing at all to be done about it.
Today I bought two lottery tickets, because I had a feeling that it would be now or never - they were both blanks. So I am not going to be rich after all. Nothing at all to be done about it.
अगर मेरे पास एक कुत्ता होता तो मुझे इतना अकेलापन महसूस नहीं होता, लेकिन मुझे लगता है कि यह कुछ ज़्यादा ही मांग करना है।
If I had a dog I would not feel so lonely, but I suppose that is asking for too much.
If I had a dog I would not feel so lonely, but I suppose that is asking for too much.
मैं इस बात से असीम रूप से खुश हूँ कि वह मुझसे इतना प्यार करता है, और मैं प्रार्थना करती हूँ कि यह हमेशा ऐसा ही रहे। अगर कभी उसका प्यार कम हुआ, तो इसमें मेरी कोई गलती नहीं होगी।
I am so infinitely happy that he loves me so much, and I pray that it will always be like this. It won't be my fault if he ever stops loving me.
I am so infinitely happy that he loves me so much, and I pray that it will always be like this. It won't be my fault if he ever stops loving me.
शायद वह डॉ. जी. के साथ अकेले रहना चाहता था, जो यहाँ थे, लेकिन उसे मुझे बताना चाहिए था। हॉफमैन के यहाँ मुझे ऐसा महसूस हो रहा था जैसे मैं धधकते अंगारों पर बैठी हूँ, और हर पल उसके आने का इंतज़ार कर रही हूँ।
Perhaps he wanted to be alone with Dr. G., who was here, but he should have let me know. At Hoffmann's I felt I was sitting on hot coals, expecting him to arrive every moment.
Perhaps he wanted to be alone with Dr. G., who was here, but he should have let me know. At Hoffmann's I felt I was sitting on hot coals, expecting him to arrive every moment.
अब मैं 23 साल की सुखी उम्र में पहुँच चुकी हूँ। नहीं, सुखी शब्द शायद इसके लिए पूरी तरह सही नहीं है। इस खास पल में मैं बिल्कुल भी खुश नहीं हूँ।
I have now reached the happy age of 23. No, happy is not quite the right word. At this particular moment I am certainly not happy.
I have now reached the happy age of 23. No, happy is not quite the right word. At this particular moment I am certainly not happy.
भगवान, मुझे डर है कि वह आज मुझे अपना जवाब नहीं देगा। काश कोई मेरी मदद कर दे - यह सब बहुत ही ज्यादा निराशाजनक है।
God, I am afraid he won't give me his answer today. If only somebody would help me - it is all so terribly depressing.
God, I am afraid he won't give me his answer today. If only somebody would help me - it is all so terribly depressing.