दृश्य कला की तरफ़ बढ़ने के लिए एक बहुत ही गहरा मोड़ आया। मेरे लेखन करियर में एक वक़्त ऐसा आया जब मेरा भाषा से, ख़ास तौर पर लिखित भाषा यानी अंग्रेज़ी से भरोसा उठ गया था। जिस चीज़ पर आपको भरोसा ही न हो, उसके साथ आप काम कैसे करेंगे? मुझे उससे दूर हटना पड़ा और अपनी बात कहने का कोई दूसरा ज़रिया ढूँढना पड़ा, वो भी बिना शब्दों के।
It took a pretty drastic moment to shift my thinking towards visual arts. I got to a moment in my writing career when I wasn't trusting the language, I was really not trusting the written language, the English language. How do you work with a material that you don't have trust in? I had to step away from it and find another way of articulating and I had to do it without words.
It took a pretty drastic moment to shift my thinking towards visual arts. I got to a moment in my writing career when I wasn't trusting the language, I was really not trusting the written language, the English language. How do you work with a material that you don't have trust in? I had to step away from it and find another way of articulating and I had to do it without words.
भाषा की राजनीति और लेखन की राजनीति ने मुझे अंदर तक झकझोर दिया था। मैंने अब एक से ज़्यादा बार यह सुना है—साहित्यिक लड़ाइयों का यह विचार, या यह धारणा कि लेखन की दुनिया में लोग एक-दूसरे के ख़िलाफ़ हैं या अपने राजनीतिक मक़सदों को पूरा करने के लिए भाषा का इस्तेमाल कर रहे हैं, भाषा से इस तरह खिलवाड़ कर रहे हैं जो मुझे बेहद ग़लत और गंदा लगा। इन सारी बातों का मेरी ज़िंदगी और भाषा पर गहरा असर पड़ा।
The politics of language and the politics of writing really got to me. I've heard this phrase more than once now: this idea of the poetry wars, or the idea that people within the space of writing are at odds with one another or manipulating language to further one's political stance, manipulating language in ways that really felt dirty to me. All of these things worked their way into and through language for me.
The politics of language and the politics of writing really got to me. I've heard this phrase more than once now: this idea of the poetry wars, or the idea that people within the space of writing are at odds with one another or manipulating language to further one's political stance, manipulating language in ways that really felt dirty to me. All of these things worked their way into and through language for me.
भाषा के दायरे से परे जाकर कुछ रचनात्मक करना अपने आप में बेहद सुकून देता है। मुझे लगता है कि जब मैं कला बनाती हूँ, तो मैं अपने हाथों से सोचने का मौक़ा भी ख़ुद को देती हूँ। लेखन की ख़ासियत यह है कि उसमें आपको हर एक शब्द से जूझना पड़ता है, लेकिन कला में शब्दों की सीमाओं से आज़ाद होकर आप बस आगे बढ़ते चले जाते हैं। मुझे चीज़ें कुछ नया बनाते वक़्त ही सूझती हैं।
It is just so satisfying to create work that is beyond the framework of language. I think for me that when I make art, I allow myself the opportunity to think with my hands as well. The thing about writing is that you're constantly grappling with every word, because it is removed from the consideration of words in many ways, it can just allow you to move through the art. I discover things in the act of making.
It is just so satisfying to create work that is beyond the framework of language. I think for me that when I make art, I allow myself the opportunity to think with my hands as well. The thing about writing is that you're constantly grappling with every word, because it is removed from the consideration of words in many ways, it can just allow you to move through the art. I discover things in the act of making.
"मेरी सोच को धार देने" का मतलब यह सोचना है कि अपने आस-पास की दुनिया के मुक़ाबले बतौर इंसान मेरी क्या जगह है। यह इस बात पर निर्भर करता है कि मैं ख़ुद को कहाँ रखती हूँ और इस दुनिया में कैसे आगे बढ़ती हूँ। मेरे लिए यही असल सोच है। इसके अलावा, लगातार ऐसी कला बनाते रहना जो किसी न किसी रूप में आपके आस-पास की दुनिया के हालात पर प्रतिक्रिया देती हो, काफ़ी थका देने वाला होता है। मैंने ख़ुद को इन सब चीज़ों से पूरी तरह से अलग करने और अपने काम में पूरी तरह खो जाने की छूट दी।
"Facilitate my thinking" means thinking about who I am as a human being in relation to the world around me. It's how I position myself, how I navigate through this world. That to me is thinking. It is also exhausting to constantly be making art that in some ways responds to the conditions of the world around you. I gave myself permission to turn all of that off, and to lose myself in work.
"Facilitate my thinking" means thinking about who I am as a human being in relation to the world around me. It's how I position myself, how I navigate through this world. That to me is thinking. It is also exhausting to constantly be making art that in some ways responds to the conditions of the world around you. I gave myself permission to turn all of that off, and to lose myself in work.